I bought a business after my son went to live with his father at aged 14. After all he didnt have to pay board or do anything, so money speaks louder than words. I was lost all on my own again. The Buisness was called The Natural Way and I worked 6 days a week. I was the counselor, the Accountant, Cleaner. You name it and I did it all.
I also became the PR person for the newly formed Gawler Country Music Club, which I was on the first Committee of this club. It was an exciting time and kept my mind off missing my son. When I wasnt working in my buisness, I was organizing Country Music Event's and going out with bad men. Hence as some abused children do is I became promiscuous yet again and dated around 4 younger men until I had my nervous breakdown early 2003.
I tried smoking dope and was on the go from dawn to midnight. Good way to put all the hurt and sadness behind me and to forget I had no family and no support. I felt so alone in the middle of the chaos.
As the days and weeks went by and I was back and forth to Perth to be with my dying mother.
Eventually my body could not take anymore and I collapsed at work and was hospitalized for short time. I had to weigh up the options and that was second time I had to go bankrupt. I was very good at my job and many people lost a lot of weight. I would counsel up to 15 people a day.💜. But my health had to come first.
Thats when I took a trip to Sydney and took Neb, with me.💙. So he got another outing with myself. His father never took him anywhere. Just handed out the money.
If Neb ever looks back all the places he has been has been with myself. I went into therapy and still see my therapist a couple of times a year.
I became a recluse and only went out to the Dr or take my beloved dogs for a walk.
I had blue heeler cross labrador, the biggest dog I have had. It was Nebs dog but hiz father would not let him take his dog, so I cared for him. I loved Kuri and it broke my heart when I had to take him to the vet to go to God. He had a large cancerous tumours on his liver and I just could not save him. Neb never understood that and still blames me for killing his dog.
I was left with Nakita and Scarlett., my 2 Pekingeses.
The 90s were no better.💙 than the rest of my life.
