1990s Go On

I spent time involved with country music and dated a few men, but had been on my own for 15 years since my third marriage broke up. So I was reading self development type books and thought I was ready for another committed relationship.
So Went on line and meet Larry. He seemed a nice man and he took me out and used to help him out in the Coffee shop he had bought. He had retired from his job and got a big package.  No he doesnt buy a house, but bought a BMW,  block of land and a coffee business.  I met him as he was just setting himself up in his coffee shop. It didnt take me long to find out he was in financial trouble with the cafe.  This was in 1994.
I suddenly found myself in  very dysfunctional family yet having to always go out to family get to gethers. This is when my chronic fatigue syndrome and fibromyalgia got worse as he was a drinker and I had to drive. I became very close to his grandchildren and loved having them stay over. They were only babies and used to love their Nana Pam. I got on okay with his 2 daughters but found it streasful to always.💚 have his ex wife at social events and family gatherings.
I had no long before met up with my brother Les who came to live in Gawler.  He was a truck driver and a binge drinker. I was always getting calls to bail him out from somewhere.  He was diagnosed with diabetes and he thought it was the end of the world. In 1995 Larry and I decided to get married. I now know looking back it was the biggest mistake yet again. Just when you have no family and you get so lonely on  your own you just think it is right at the time. So we had a big wedding and  on our honeymoon,  I realized,  I wasnt in love with him but loved him as I knew him. So I was in this relationship and just got on  with it. I had got a computer in  1994 so was teaching myself how to use it so I got to meet many good  friends which helped me get through the dynamites of his family, trying to support my alcoholic brother my only full biogical sibbling and he had never lived near me for 30 years.  He used to live near our mother. So I was getting to see how bad he was.
My health began to go down hill again I had  severe pain and fatigue and when I wasn't drsgging myself around the constant family events and arguments,  I was minding my step grandchildren and I loved them dearly and that was why I stayed so long with him. They loved their Nana Pam.  I still miss them.